EXPRESS. Don't REpress.

I'd like to apologize for being AWOL for the past few months. I would always tell myself, "Seriously, just freakin' write!"

Since I last posted a blog, things got progressively worse, unfortunately. It would've helped to share, but sometimes you just gotta deal. In my case, an INTERNAL battle.

However! And there IS a however... this month has been a good one. A blessing from God. It's not because it was the holidays (which I hope everyone had a great one), but I was genuinely happy. It's been such a long time, but it was nice to remember the feeling. I finally had time. Time just for ME. (Note to readers: It is crucial to have "ME" time. Don't forget.) I had time to work on my screenplays, DANCE <3, Grown & Sexy nights with my girls, and most importantly, time with family. It's been good.

So you ask, "How do I start my year off right?" Good question. Just from experience, avoid the poisonous things, people, etc., that made your year crap you know? For example, EX OUT THE EXES! Meaning, don't go running to old flings, boy/girlfriends, hoping that a new year will bring a new and improved relationship... it won't. I mean it.

Self-control.

Ring in the New Year with family, friends, and a NEW outlook. You WANT the year to be a good one correct? Then know that if you work hard, 2009 will bring a new and improved YOU. Don't get discouraged. Just keep truckin'.

So anyway, aside from my usual "lose the impossible 15 pounds" or "BE ORGANIZED," which I normally fail to accomplish, I've added writing and blogging and "what have yous" that go along with it to the list. SO I'll be around. I shall do my best at least!

2009 is OUR year.

...Express don't repress...

In case I don't hear from you...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

YOURS TRULY <3333

No good.

Rummaging.

Don't do it.

Inevitably, you will find something that reminds you of a time in your life that you would rather FORGET. In my case, a REGRET. And regrets are no good.

My ONE regret that eats away through my thick skin. I think a lot of us do our best to understand that things happen for a reason right? I know that. But that one thing... person ...haunts and taunts. This super vague image of someone who existed, so so long ago.

My own Pandora's Box. Literally... opened.

What sucks is that I knew. I had that "Uh Oh" feeling even before, that if I opened THIS box, there would be something that would pop out and say, "Remember me?"

Curiosity got the best of me. For sure.

Now here I am, confused and regretful of a decision that was made selfishly, YEARS ago, that changed my life. How I learned the hard way that a simple, "I'm sorry," won't ever make up for the damage. What goes around comes back around. I hate KARMA.

So would things have turned out better for me? Who knows.

I just want to forget my one regret.



(I changed the date of this blog to go along with this day since it just passed. I just wanted to say, Happy Birthday to YOU, wherever you are. I hope you're well and happy)